In this very personal essay, Catherine Mayer remembers her friend Michael Hutchence, and wonders if our hunger for celebrity gossip is debasing our society
These days I know lots of dead people, but 20 years ago my ghosts were few and elderly. Then, on 22 November 1997, Michael Hutchence died, the first close friend of my age to do so. Grief doesnt always manifest in tears and pain. For months afterwards, numb and fizzing with a demented energy, I walked into walls and tripped over paving stones. The bruises multiplied as if my body was trying to tell me: This hurts; this really hurts.
Michaels death also began to crystallise my unease about fame and our relationship with it.
Eleven weeks earlier, photographers had pursued a car into a tunnel in Paris, then stopped to take pictures of its dead and dying occupants. In the manner of her death, Diana the hunted seemingly left the media nowhere to hide from its culpability. In truth the events enabled a false distinction between mass-market press and the rest of my profession. As Michaels friend, I had direct experience of the excesses of the paparazzi and the tabloids who paid them. I remember trying to drive his Jeep with a photographer draped across the bonnet, firing a flash gun straight into my eyes in his efforts to capture an image of Michael huddled with Paula Yates in the back seat, attempting to shield their baby their tiny, new baby.
Yet as a journalist and a consumer of celebrity news I couldnt ignore the ways in which print journalists right across the spectrum, from red-top to broadsheet, misrepresented Michael. It wasnt just about the mixture of sloppiness and invented detail, or even the crass reinforcement of every conceivable stereotype about masculinity and rock stars. Their reports concealed toxic narratives that played out in unexpected ways after Michaels death and set me wondering about the wider effects of celebrity culture.